Absence of Thoughts......

I buy new pencils,pens
new note books,new erasers
I need to write like I used to..
I lock myself in...
try to think of nothing but writing...
my friends my family
wants me to write
But I couldn't......
Sometimes I scream inside.....
please let me write something.....
I spend hours and hours sitting by the large window....

watching people...vehicles.....

few trees...little grass.....
now I doubt......
Is this the absence of thoughts...
or the absence of nature.....